hahaha!!! it's been a week since i've updated!!! hahahaha!!! i'm just so busy and too lazy to update here... hehehe.. ^^, i dunno... i've been updating on my story on my other blog http://hatred.blogdrive.com gosh!! who has ideas?? i need some!! can u spare me?? plzzz!!!! hehehe.. well.. this week? it's been good.... haha!!! i've graduated elementary!!! yay!!! highschool time!!! highschool here i come!!! muwahahahaha!!! i dunno... i'm just so excited being a highschool student!! new everything!!!!! but still... my friends will still be aldon, connie, rieza, jill, shar and nico!!! i luv you guys!!! really!!!! so... what else?? hmmm.... it's holy week today so... it's a bit boring here in my place.. tv, comp, eat, sleep... *sighs* i wish my friends would come here in my house!!! and have some fun!!!! hey!!! there would be a freakin reunion guys!! in school... well... it was setted up by the moms!!! WTF??? the moms?? holy cow's shit!!! hahaha!!! i'm just kidding!!! so til here guys!!! i'll upd8 here ASAP... and by the way... i'm no more talkin bout my probs here... why??? cuz i feel i have no privacy... and I HAVE MY OWN DIARY!!!! get it?? so til here!!! byes!!!



You are the depressed/dreamer anime girl.You either
lost somebody you love or somebody broke you
heart so bad that you can't pick up the
shattered pieces without hurting yourself.You
think nobody can heal your wounds but don't
stop looking because you never know who loves
you enough to try hell the one special guy
could be right infornt of your eyes and you
don't even know it.You also love to day dream
because it seems like the only place that makes
you happy.BBut little do you know that people
all around you are trying to make you happy and
you won't let them in fearing you'll get
another heartbreak or get hurt worse.But just
try and if things go wrong just brush it off
and try again.It never hurts to try.

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You like the ones that understand you.

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well... again... here to update!!! for mah life this day... well... ummmm... this day?? it's been a great but bored day... why?? 1st to the great thing... bcuz we don't have classes 2day... and 2morrow will be our graduation..... huhuhuhuhuhu.... i'll miss ya'll!!! espexally Aldon!!! bestie!!! promise we'll see each other again ayt??? and my other besties as well.... con, rox, jill ans shar.... labshu guys!!! ^_^.... and why i am so bored??? bcuz there are no classes 2day!!! wahahaha!!!! ^_^... back to normal Joy again... but still the same inside.... still lonely... wahahaha... ok... stop the drama!!! well.... ermm.... what else.... it's just so great that uhmmmmm....... uhmmm.... it's juz so great that this day is great!! hahaha!!! i didn't get that! nah!!! kidding!!! well... ermmmm...... well... nothing too much happened this day... cuz i'm in the kingdom of boredome!!! even until now!!! i'm still so bored!!!! so til here guys!!! byes!!! muwahugs!!!!



you're an angel of death and destruction. you like
hurting others and chaos.

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so til here!!! byes!!!! ^_^...

haha!!! here to update!!! well... this day??? ugh!!!! hate it!!! but not really... why?? well... you'll found it out latah!!! well... let's start off in the morning... it's not really that good... cuz mah mom... started nagging me.... cool to start the day huh?? you think??? well... then... i surfed the net for few hours.... then took a bath.. dress up, eat and go to school for some practice... did i said school???? oh... well... i do really cried a lot there earlier!!! why??? so many problems!!!! those b!tches!!! they think that i'm still pissed cuz i'm only 2nd honorable??? oh shuddup!!! and then... we juz settled it... cuz on the next day.. it's GRADUATION!!! yahoo!!! high-school here i come!!!! muwahahaha!!! i'll be 1st yr high school this coming next school year!!! and i found it really exciting!!! new school, new classmates, new teachers and staffs, new frends and new boys!!! muwahahaha!!! i'm juz kidding on that!! oh and such!!! well... after school... i went back home and surfed the net... and made a new blog for mah non-sense stories... want to see it?? visit it!! => http://hatred.blogdrive.com well... it's more about on my stories and stuffs... ok.. well... bout this night??? it's damn good!!!! haha!!! i watched MTV Ask... and GooD CharlottE was on it!!! oooooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! goddamnit!!! billy is definitely super duper hotness!!!!! cuteness!!! ^_~... wahahaha!!! well.... that's it.... no more to add on it... i juz want u guys to check my other blog.... pls!!!! ^_^.... http://hatred.blogdrive.com that's the site... so there... til nxt time!! byes!! rock on!!! \m/!!!


You are the Spirit of Sadness. Deep pain and sorrow
lie within you, betrayal, jealousy and
rejection rule your life. You cannot make
friends as you are too scared at the prospect
of being hurt again and you can't take that
risk. You wish more than anything to have a
steady person there who loves you
unconditionally but you are too scared to find
them.

Which stunning spirit of emotion are you? NEW AND IMPROVED! (amazingly beautiful anime pics!)
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Your element is Rain: Sad, lonely, distant and
unique. You are quite distant from emotion and
people, but you have been made this way by one
thing or another. You are truly unique yet fail
to see it, and are quite creative be it in art,
music, writing, ect.. You used to let people in
now you don't even bother to try having been
hurt so many times in the past. Your attitude
is that you don't need anyone but yourself,
people are just trouble waiting to happen. But
you really do want to trust someone no matter
if you see it or not, deep down your waiting
for someone to come and set you free. This kind
of depression can turn dangerous, don't let
them get to you. Not everyone in the world will
hurt you, humans are humans and are not
perfect. So most likely sooner or later you'll
meet someone who feels like you do and perhaps
your shell will eventually disappear.

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SlipKnoT is your match. Wounded, Angry, Regretful
yet Hateful. Your spirit's song is I Am Hated

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wahahahahaha!!! sLiPkNoT tHe bEsT!!!! 4LifE!!! muwahahaha!!!! and iT's trUe!!! i'M reaLLy hatEd!!!! *sings* Now i'm not pretty and i'm not cool, But i'm fat and i'm ugly and proud, So f*ck you!!! muwahahaha!!!!

well... here to post some things... i want ya'll to know... maybe this is more bout me...

juz some results and pix... and explaination...


In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything
because your eyes are covered up by tears! You
are constantly hurt and depressed... No one
seems to understand how you feel because
everyone is scared to get close to you... You
long to be able to reach out and tell someone
everything, and all of your problems... But you
have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to
want to hear what you have to say. You've been
hurt many times that you don't seem to have any
tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an
endless river flowing... You've started to hide
and bottle up all or your problems and
feelings, hoping that maybe they just will go
away... You want company, but at the same time,
you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your
room where you can just be alone and try to
throw away all of your aching pains. You're
dark and mysterious and people like you for
that reason. Even if you think you're all by
yourself in the dark, someone is always there
with you. Your special someone wants to admit
and show their feelings towards you, but
they're afraid of how you'll take it. Get out
more and enjoy life because, it is far too long
to frown your way through :)

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i'm back!!! with more hatred and pain inside of me!!! more!!! i mean more!!!!!!!!! why is my life like this?!?!?!?!?! i can't now stand it!!!!! i can never stand it!!!!!!!! i'm always sssssssssooooooooo wrong!!!! and all of u think you're right!!!! you're never been!!!!!!!!!! why????? bcuz U r NOT PERFECT!!!! get it??? huh??? why do everybody thinks that they are perfect??? no one is perfect!! ayt??? u are not a perfect person!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! get it????????? i hate this life!!! i hate it!!!! it's like u're in hell!!! no!!! it's more likely u're in a place... in a dark place where u are so and very alone...... w/ noone is around u... noone can see u.... noone is caring about u.... they think u're not there... that's like the place...where i am living right now... i juz tnx my frends who somewhat listened to me... at some other time... maybe... especially to you, aldon... you've always been so special to me... always... i'm so sorry if sometimes i'm too envious... they're right.... juz follow ur heart!!! keep it up guy!!! well... tnx as well to connie... whose been a crying shoulder for me... tnx for always being there when i'm down and when i'm lonely and crying at one small place... thank you very much guys... maybe this is the only time that i can say this all to you... bcuz this is the only chance to express my feelings to you... to the others... i'm so sorry for all the wrong i've done... to you sharleene, rieza, gab, jill and to all the others... whose been a really good friends to me.... i'm so glad that you're there.... tnx!!! so maybe till here guys!!!! i've got to go!!! byes!!! see yah maybe 2morow!!! rock on!!! \m/!!


some lyrics again... chorus of "you're worthy" by kitchie nadal..
reveal ur self to me
i want to bleed with you
til the day comes
i want to
build my world around you
w/ no inclination
to fear reason passion desire


you represent the dark feelings in life. you are
sad and lonely and also keep to yourself.

What part of life do you represent? ( AWESOME anime pics ^_^)
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Your dark side is centered around Pain. You feel
you want to scream and cry, want to leave this
place and run away from everything but you
can't, you are trapped inside your head and
there is no way out. All you want is a
beautiful unique mind just like you, can listen
and understand so you can full your world with
happiness and peace. You will find what you
want when you simplify your life and stop
looking to the dark side.

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so this entry... i dunno!!! it's maybe full of hatred!!! ugh!!!!! i hate my life!!!! i really do!!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!! i want to die ayt now!!!!! why??? cuz i'm a non-sense person in this motherfreakin world!!!!!!!! 1st my boyfriend, then my bestfriends... u know who u are ayt???? then now i can't do it!!!! now my family!!!!! why do they all have to leave me???? alone??? with this pain!!!! that i merely can't bear!!!! maybe it was my fault.... but still... i hate it you know?? i'm insane right now!!! i'm always ayt??? ayt my frends??? u all know that!!! i dunno... why are u so mad bout me??? i don't even go with YOU bcuz YOU are such a motherfreakin BACKSTABBER!!!! and if u didn't know, our other classmates can hear your maotherfreakin mouth talkin bout me!!! what did i did to you??? i even said sorry for all what i've done.... right??? but still.... u are still like that!!!! me and your other bestfriend miss the real you... u know that??? the girl we used to know since nursery... that little inocent cute girl... but noe... it seems like you are a motherf*ckin b!tch or a creepy lil s£ut who is influenced by some peepz there...... u know what i mean??? ayt!!!! wwwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!! what the hell am i talkin about... well... it's my opportunity to speak up... why?? cuz THIS IS MY BLOG!!! remember???? ok... well... mext is bout my family!!! yay!!! my psycho family.... well... they really hurt me!!! i hate it though... well.. who doesn't?? ayt??? who will not be hurt, when YOUR MOM.... HUMILIATE YOU INFRONT OF MANY PEOPLE??? who doesn't??? huh??? tell me!!!! why dod they can't take that i'm only a girl... studying, and doing my best to be my grades high!!!!! higher than those freaks in the skul!!! wwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh!!! why can't she take that??? why does she have to humiliate me??? infront of my bestfrends mom and to my teachers!!! uuuuuuuuuggggggggggghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! damnit!!!!!!!!! i study hard though!!! and yes!! i'll admit!!! i want to be the salutatorian of that freakiun class!!! but there were 2 freaks that made me the 2nd honorable awardee ONLY!!!! gets??? get it right??? oh well... right... i'll stop now... b4 i can kill... can kill.... whoever!!!! byes peepz!!! see yah!!! see yah in HELL!!! muwahahahahaha!!!! byes!!!!

there were some lyrics now... it's the chorus of the song "Fire" by Kitchie Nadal....

it took 6 sweet years of ur life
u walked alone along w/ ur tea-cold colored mind
subtly u pay the curse upon u
but the promise of the man
seeps through eart, grave and stone
u will seek Him w/ all ur heart, soul and strenght
u'll count all the cost as u walked out the door
w/o a warning u'll set the world on fire
using me, FIRE.....

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heya!! well... here to update... muwahahahaha!!! yesterday?? sunday??? well.... i woke up then i watched t.v. and then i surf the net and eat and watch t.v. again!! muwahahahaha!!! well... i went to church yesterday... bcuz... duh!!! i need to go..... and thank god!!! i passed the entrance exam in st.Mary's college!!! and tomorrow i'll have the last interview.... *sigh* i wish i'll totally pass!!! and then enroll... cuz i don't want to try in other schools anymore cuz.... it's hard!!! i don't want to take any entrance exams!!! and there.... well... what else??? for this day?? hmmm.... it's ok... except for my mom shouting at me!!! ugh!!!!! i hate it!!! well... who doesn't??? ayt??? and i'm soooooooooooooo pissed!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate it!!!! why?? why am i pissed??? darn it!!! it's juz bcuz i'm only on the 2nd honorable mention!!! dammit!!!!!!1000000x i hate it!!! i thought.. i juz thought... that i'm in the 1st honorable mention!!! ugh!!! i hate that motherf*ckin b!tch also a s£uT!!! that!!! ugh!!! i don't want to speak up any names!!! cuz... u know... there are some guys who read this and tell those other guys what i said.... and start a war!!! well... to admit!! i'm a total warfreak!!! i know u know!!! and for all those who i fought.... sowi for that!!! it's ur problem though... u started it... i'll ended it!!! gets?? so maybe til here.... byes!!!



here are some results of me.... muwahahaha!!!

The Goddess of Magic and Peace. You are a born
star. Always supportive and influential, you
the centre of attention and you are
exceptionally friendly. You are a classic
beauty.

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Poseidon

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wahahahahahahahahaha!!!!! i'm back!!!! it's been a week since i updated... why?? bcuz i'm too lazy to open this motherf*ckin comp!!! u know what i mean??? yeah... well this week has been great.... but it made me so freakin tired!!! we had a practice bcuz of some nonsense performance.... but it's ok cuz that's the last performance of ours with our lovely theatre club teacher!!! ^_^!!! we had a great time though.... me?? yeah... but there were times in the classroom that i felt so LEFT OUT!!! i mean.... ugh!!! i hate it!!!! all of them were dancing this freakin dance!!! and i didn't even know how to do it!!! and well.... most of my frends... well... they're juz there... hangin 'round... but that's ok... sumtimes i want to be alone.... in a small corner... well... i feel always so left out though.... and i would prefer to be alone and daydream than to be with them.... cuz with them.... i feel.... left out!!! always!!! i promise!!! cuz they would talk about things that i didn't know.... but thank god!!!! some were still there!!! *sighs*... last friday.... i took an entrance exam in st.mary's college... and there were 2 girls.... ugh!!! they were so freakin annoying!!! why?? cuz they were so like.... kikay!!! hate em!!! want to kill em!!!! waaaaaaaaaahhh!!! ok... well... last friday also is our farewell party... but i feel it wasn't.... but i had some fun to admit it.... hahahahahaha!!! i juz freakin won in a game!!! and it was so funny!!! why?? cuz the game is the non-sense trip to jerusalem!!! wahahahahahaha!!! LoL!!!! ^_^!!! and that's not it!!! the mechanics is wild!!! damnit!!! u see.... the girls SHOULD sit on the guy's LAP!!! wwwwwwwaaaaaahhhhh!!! u know!!! my frend almost freak out!!! why??? cuz she used to sit on her crush's lap... that's not all... she hated him!!!! wahahahahahaha!!!! LOL!!!!! well... eventhough i'm so left out!!! i had some frends who made me happy... wahahahaha!!! even my other "frends" is not there!!!! and well... to all of you!!! it's ok... don't be freakin soory if you didn't notice me... all of you have other frends... ayt?? no prob with that!! and i understand that u just want to enjoy urselves.... i dont really care though.... it's ok... and sometimes i juz really want to be alone... cuz i know u all hate me... for what i've did to u... well... i'm sorry bout that though... didn't mean to do that... and i'm not trying to get ur frends.... tell me if i'm trying... don't be such a plastic!!!! and to one of my classmate!!! i'm not trying to get your bestfriend's attention!!! hello!!! i still have myself!!!! and she's all yours!!! damn you in blue hell!!! you b!tch!!! hate you!!! wahahahahaha!!! that's the 1st time i said that!!! to her!!! hahahaha!!! >:)!! well.... yesterday??? saturday??? well... it rockz!!!!! wwe raw!!! damn orton is damn hot!!! and mtv motoalert they featured gOoD cHarLotTe!!! and damn!!! billy is motherfreakin HOT!!! i love him!!! much!!! aaaaahhhhh!! all of them are so hot!!! even Benji!!! wahahahaha!!! don't complain if i love Benji!!! he's hot though!!! hahaha!! if you hate him!!! i dont care!!! damn you!!! hahahaha!!!! so last night!!! ugh!! i frakin hate it!!! my mom!!! ugh!!!!!!!!! damn!!! don't want to tell yah what happened!!! so well... til here guys!!! i'm so freakin sorry if i touched your hearts!!! nyak!!! juz kidding!!! ^_^!!! whoa!!! this is really long!!! wahahaha!!! so til her!!! byes guys!!!!




so have some lyrics here from 3 doors down... and the song is "here w/o you"

hey guys!!!!!!! well.... back 2 update my saturday...... well.... this is the day that our exams ended.... *sighs* thank god they are all finish!!!! ^_^!!!! not really hyper 2day.... ummm... cuz i think i'm too sleepey and tired now.....oh by the way!!! not being a b*tch or s*ut..... earlier in the school... there were art lessons there.... and damn!!!! there's a guy who is about my age.... he has rosy cute cheeks... and damn he is cute!!! but not hot!!! i mean..... the way he dress.... ugh!!! hate it!!!! but i'm really not being a what ayt??? hehehe....^_^!!! well.... earlier as well....  tried 2 slip.... but i juz had a 30 min of slip!!! that suckz!!! i mean!!! wth???? u're going 2 slip at 11 and woke up at 4:30 am juz 2 study those motherfreakin lessons!!!! ugh!!!! i hate it!!!! we all hate it!!!!!!! hehe... ^_^!!!!but hey!!! when i woke up the song in the radio was i juz wanna live.... so it's cool at the same time.... and this afternoon?? it rocked!!!! i watched alone MTV rockz special.... and simple plan was the artist!!!! and i juz can't control myself!!!! i mean!!! david and sebastian are hot!!!! hottness!!!!!!! both of them are so cute!!! and they even showed weird freakin things!!!! wahahahahaha!!!! that really rockz!!! ^_^!!! and then.... i watched raw!!!! aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!! orton is so..... handsome!!!! muwahahaha!!! and damnit!!! i hate Stacy Keibler!!!! she's ruining Orton's life!!!!can't she understand that Orton is sick!! damnit!!!! so this night..... it's been a sad, depressing night.... i dunno.... it's just there was a song from 3 doors down and the title was "let me go".... and it juz relates on me nd my ex-bf!!! so that song made me remembered him.... and made me cry... hate it when i cry... sumtimes... i just continue crying..... until i force myself to stop..... ugh!!! gosh... by the way.... if u want to see the lyrics... i will post them.... and no pix 4 2nyt.... ayt?? so... til there guys!!! gals!!! tC!!! peace out!!! rock on!!! \m/!!!